Pride / by Lindsay Clark

Dear Ones,

I've been working on recording a rough take of this song in my bedroom for the past few weeks and it's finally ready - I'm not a recording genius but it's a good outline for the beginnings of my new record - which I'm happy to report has finally begun to take shape in the writing process, and I'll be ready to enter a studio (or wild forest or coastal diy studio - suggestions?). To be completely honest, I wasn't sure this (or any) future record would ever surface. I've struggled a lot over the past few years with my writing process - feeling blocked, confused, directionless, and also feeling a lot of self-imposed pressure to be great, and to do something eye catching/ear catching. It's been a lot of 'shoulds' - how I should sound, what kind of songs I should write, what people like. I've been too attuned to the outside and not enough to the inside. I had to consciously start feeling my heart when I wrote - I would pose internal questions to myself and had to redirect my energy from my head back down into my (literal, physical) heart center. I hope I'm bringing to the surface more of the raw energy that's required for this sort of thing, the making of something new.  I'm also learning to trust the 'ebb' and that ebbs are not always blocks until you say so.  The song is about dissolving pride, about consciously choosing to soften your heart even when every part of you wants to create a wall - it's so easy to snap closed to the people who hurt us, who can't love us, who disagree with us... but it's also okay to acknowledge that anger is just another form of attachment (and pride = anger) and to say, okay, I forgive you, or if I can't yet I will begin by putting myself in the state of willingness, to be willing.

With Love,

Lindsay